him .

i dont know why . why i should think bout him . why he always come into my mind . i try throw away all of that . but that thing still come into my head . i hate it ! why everytime i get a problem . him always come into my mind . i'm still thiking and hope he always beside me and accompany me when in distress . but all of that only in dream . He made me who I am, and holding his in my arms was more natural to me than my own heartbeat. I think about him all the time. Even now, when I'm sitting here, I think about him. There could never have been another. But, I know. He didn't think of me as much as I was thinking about him.

now I'm standing here, in this empty green field. The white birds flying freely in the sky. I screamed your name, as loudly as I can. Hoping that you can come to me and hug me to make me cool down . and stand beside me when i'm in problem . always accompany me like before this . But, now. I give up. I'm tired of holding this feeling all on my own. Yes, I give up. i trough u away from my feeling . but . . . .

the truly when i in problem . only u come into my mind . i need yr hug to make me cold down . but that imposible . all that just be lagend in my memories . u hepy with other person right now . . oh god . . please throw away him from my head . . i know i cant do it . but the problem i get it make me think back to memory . . . .

i mish the time u always beside me . hang out together , sharing story .

i mish your kisses and caresses from u and that makes me feel loved

i mish your hug . u always hug me when i'm cry and in distress

i mish when u hold my hand . hold my arm . that make me feel comfortable and save with u .

but all of that only be apart of memory in my life . all off that is over . what hapen before this never and never hapen again now . i should acept this . he never come to me and hug me to make me cool down evrytime i in problem . it never be again ! . . .