alone . . . .

every night before i sleep i'm always thinking of u ,
why u make me like this ?
am i not good enough for you? please dear . i'm begging u . i really need the answer .
don't makes me miserable . i hate it . :'(
until now i still don't know the true . . .
it's really really fucking hurt you know . . know what sometimes when i say it's ok . . i lie . but the true it's not . . .
it's really hurt me . . but i'm try my best to hide that feeling . . i try to forget bout u becouse i know now u not beside me anymore . . .
but i can't . . i can't do that . . sometime u come into my dream . . it make me feel realy2 mish u . .
hmmm . . god . . please give me strength . . i know that i'm not strong enough to face this things . . but i'm trying . . i'm trying my best . . but it's feel like i'm dying alone. :'(